Monday, August 17, 2015

The Things I Miss The Most

are often taken for granted until they're gone. 

What I mean is, Mom can no longer carry on a conversation and I think it's sad she lives in that state of mind. The only saving grace is I believe Mom doesn't know how bad her mind is. She does dream but even these dreams skew her vision of reality.  

From these dreams she thinks her mother is still alive and that her aunt Laura lives just down the street. She will argue both of these to the point of exhaustion because the Alzheimer's has taken hold and now has complete control. 

Beyond her dream state there's not much cognitive thought. As an example; when she looks out the front window, there are always cars parked on the street. She can see the cars, but her mind won't register the other houses in the neighborhood so she thinks every car within her view belongs to us. Which quite often leads to "where's my car?"

Yes, it's tough and this is disheartening for me as her son and caregiver. I don't know what to do other than play along whenever I can, while at the same time make her life as comfortable as possible. 

I know Mom's doctor warned me, but it's getting tougher and tougher to find foods she will eat. In the beginning she would eat just about anything, but the last two weeks she has narrowed it down to breakfast or soup and the last two days even the soup has failed. I can keep her nutrition levels up with breakfast foods, she stopped drinking Ensure a year ago, but the lack of variety concerns me. I probably shouldn't worry since she's eating balanced meals, plus the problem could be that every time she gets out of bed she thinks it's morning.

I guess that's enough for now. 

Thanks for reading and have a great day!

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